I Still HaVeN't heard a THING

You know when you're expecting news and you're trying to be positive and think things are going to work out like you hope, but cant help but wondering "what-if' ? what if the news I get isnt the news I want! then what do I do??? That's where I am right now wondering and waiting for my local chairman to call or email me with the news, good or bad. Because as far as I'm converned this is our ticket back to California and THAT excites me, it also makes me nervous for alot of different reasons. Finding reliable babysitting for the two most important people in my life, dealing with the possibility that my husband may not join us for months and months, and re-qualifying and passing all of the hard tests that I'm going to have to take. But this is what I want right? Right! or at least I hope I'm right.

So until I hear something, anything I will be waiting for the news that I want to hear. Positive thinking ='s postive results right? Let's hope so.

Love

Leslie

Nervous AND Excited

So... since we have been here in Missouri for 10 months now, which honestly seems like 10 years, my mind races and races to try and figure out a WAY OUT. Maybe some of you didnt know that i worked for the BNSF for 13 years and decided i wanted to quit and start my family and change careers. Well i did ALL of that however one big glich in my plans my so called new career didnt work out as i had hoped i ended up getting pregnant 3 months into my assistant program and couldnt handle standing on my tired aching feet for 12-14 hours a day, so i quit. 15 months later i decided to assist again making a whopping 10$ an hour just enough to cover babysitting fees. Long story short I quit,we moved and im miserable! So i contacted my old local chairman with the Railroad and asked if i could get my job back half joking half serious thinking there is no way in hell it would happen I mean who quits a seniority based union job and 4 1/2 years later wants it back AND thinks they'll get it back!

That leads me to today. Im waiting nervously for an answer as to whether I will be granted the unthinkable (my job) What will I do with the kids? What about jeff? he's here and i would be there! alone. I'm thinking my chances are about 10% I know i should be more optimistic but I dont want to get my hopes up too high. So that is what is going on in my world THIS second. I've been praying and praying for good news, i will try and accept the bad news if that is what is meant to be.



PS...I can feel finn move ON THE OUTSIDE of my tummy..so fun